Dolph Crawford used his pretty-boy looks to wrangle his way to fortune and fame. But along the way, his life was filled with the inevitable ups and downs of a young gay boy growing up in mostly heterosexual Texas.

Alienation, shame, and self-hatred were the substance of his youth, and when he left home in his teens he didn't fare much better.

Fueled by confusion and pain, he entered the alluring but toxic world of male hustling, dancing, and eventually signed with Vivid Entertainment to act in, produce, and direct some of the company's most popular gay porn videos.

Now Dolph bares all in a revealing memoir that rips the glamour off the video industry as effectively as it unearths the enduring pain of growing up gay in America.