Amazon.com description: Product Description: *************Honorable Mention, Glimmer Train Press, Inc., June 2014 Open Fiction Contest************* "Why am I here? First of May, I was gasping for air, grasping for intention but underneath my black mind and sick heart was this tiny window of light from a deeper place and I don’t know if it originated from me or from outside the way a match lights a candle but eventually in any event it was mine and still the master of me rather it was my true self saying look you sometimes planetarian where your feet trod despite your sorrow you are still standing nurture yourself be your own mother be your own father and the rest of me the fabric the house the shell that was seeing this warm yellow illumination this possibility this way out the brain the heart the body … was acutely afraid."